My Story
Initially I wasn't even going to document any of this. But, even with the heartache & loss that I am feeling, I still find so much Beauty & Love in this experience of mine. That it's in those parts I want to remember.
Today we Lost our baby Girl
@ 16.1 weeks.
Diagnosed with Placenta Previa & Subchorionic hemorrhage
By my side
My husband, The Strong person that he is was with me every moment that I needed him.In and out of the hospital for over a week. I can't even begin to describe in words how much I appreciate all of his love & support. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through as a Mother. Trying to remain strong for my little ones throughout what is supposed to be a Happy Holiday Season... I was literally a walking zombie just to get through the days & weeks that this was all happening. To go through all of the procedures of having a baby and then coming home without her....was the most painful experience of loss & sadness I have EVER had to endure. I WISH....I could turn back time and make it better somehow.
Christmas came and went....
I wanted to tell Sloan thank you for offering to help. My Mother in Law for the wonderful amazing,thoughtful gifts that she got for our family. Others don't even know this has happened yet.... I still don't have the energy to talk to anyone and explain the way
I Feel.... True Sadness....
Aiden as well as the other children have been really sweet & sad too. I am grateful for all of them. I am in Love with them and so Proud to be there Mom.
How can this be?
Initially I wasn't even going to document any of this. But, even with the heartache & loss that I am feeling, I still find so much Beauty & Love in this experience of mine. That it's in those parts I want to remember.
Today we Lost our baby Girl
@ 16.1 weeks.
Diagnosed with Placenta Previa & Subchorionic hemorrhage
By my side
My husband, The Strong person that he is was with me every moment that I needed him.In and out of the hospital for over a week. I can't even begin to describe in words how much I appreciate all of his love & support. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through as a Mother. Trying to remain strong for my little ones throughout what is supposed to be a Happy Holiday Season... I was literally a walking zombie just to get through the days & weeks that this was all happening. To go through all of the procedures of having a baby and then coming home without her....was the most painful experience of loss & sadness I have EVER had to endure. I WISH....I could turn back time and make it better somehow.
Christmas came and went....
I wanted to tell Sloan thank you for offering to help. My Mother in Law for the wonderful amazing,thoughtful gifts that she got for our family. Others don't even know this has happened yet.... I still don't have the energy to talk to anyone and explain the way
I Feel.... True Sadness....
Aiden as well as the other children have been really sweet & sad too. I am grateful for all of them. I am in Love with them and so Proud to be there Mom.
How can this be?
In the Emergency room again,waiting to get a shot.
I sat there looking around, there is a Mother holding her little girl about 2 years of age,she must have broken her arm as I watched this mother cradle her so gently. I thought,I too am a mother and here I sit with my amazing 7 year old son Aiden consoling me. I am supposed to be the strong one here.This doesn't feel right but, at the same time I am so Thankful for his kind sweet words, and just being there, present. We laid and cuddled in the hospital bed for hours,watching what few channels there are on a hospital t.v.
I thanked God that he was there
I sat there looking around, there is a Mother holding her little girl about 2 years of age,she must have broken her arm as I watched this mother cradle her so gently. I thought,I too am a mother and here I sit with my amazing 7 year old son Aiden consoling me. I am supposed to be the strong one here.This doesn't feel right but, at the same time I am so Thankful for his kind sweet words, and just being there, present. We laid and cuddled in the hospital bed for hours,watching what few channels there are on a hospital t.v.
I thanked God that he was there
Aiden & the little ones say that Grandpa is holding you...Sweet little one, I pray with all my Heart that he is.
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