Happy Birthday Jesus!

Christmas Dinner
We love to set the table together for Special Holidays.
Baked goods and always a candy bar of some sort to call the kids back into the kitchen,where I'm spending alot of my day.I love to see the smiles on there faces when they're in search for the new things that I set out.

Christmas Breakfast

Healthly Breakfast muffins,Oranges & Tea from our Lovely JOY!

Silverware
Anniversary gift from my Lovely Husband. This gift has brought us so many fond memories.

Paula Dean Cookware Set
The only other women that have been in my kitchen have been both of our mothers.
Ha~Ha
They have been the only one's ever to clean my OVEN?
I know...I cook and the fire alarm goes off every time. I don't get it?
Shadd's Mother has been the only one to ever buy my Pot's & Pan's and this year they're BEAUTIFUL.... THANK YOU!
I had a nice quiet time cooking Christmas Dinner By myself...
Shadd did the Ham.
But, for a little while although sad...this gift broke the moment for a minute while I reminisced all of the things that I had cooked with her other gifts in the very beginning of our relationship in our first Apt.
Nice to get out of my own head for awhile.
Love you!

Tea~Time
Warm your little Tummies & call it a Wonderful Night!
Merry Christmas!

Christmas ~ 2011

Christmas Morn...
Joy,Laughter,excitement in the air.... He Came!

Christmas Eve

Twas the Night Before Christmas
Getting ready for Santa, New P.j's,Leave out the Milk & Cookies, DOn't FoRgEt the R.D's Carrot's,Last but not least....Twas the Night Before Christmas that Daddy reads every year.

Love & Loss

My Story
Initially I wasn't even going to document any of this. But, even with the heartache & loss that I am feeling, I still find so much Beauty & Love in this experience of mine. That it's in those parts I want to remember.


Today we Lost our baby Girl
@ 16.1 weeks.
Diagnosed with Placenta Previa & Subchorionic hemorrhage


By my side
My husband, The Strong person that he is was with me every moment that I needed him.In and out of the hospital for over a week. I can't even begin to describe in words how much I appreciate all of his love & support. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to go through as a Mother. Trying to remain strong for my little ones throughout what is supposed to be a Happy Holiday Season... I was literally a walking zombie just to get through the days & weeks that this was all happening. To go through all of the procedures of having a baby and then coming home without her....was the most painful experience of loss & sadness I have EVER had to endure. I WISH....I could turn back time and make it better somehow.

Christmas came and went....
I wanted to tell Sloan thank you for offering to help. My Mother in Law for the wonderful amazing,thoughtful gifts that she got for our family. Others don't even know this has happened yet.... I still don't have the energy to talk to anyone and explain the way
I Feel.... True Sadness....
Aiden as well as the other children have been really sweet & sad too. I am grateful for all of them. I am in Love with them and so Proud to be there Mom.


How can this be?

In the Emergency room again,waiting to get a shot.
I sat there looking around, there is a Mother holding her little girl about 2 years of age,she must have broken her arm as I watched this mother cradle her so gently. I thought,I too am a mother and here I sit with my amazing 7 year old son Aiden consoling me. I am supposed to be the strong one here.This doesn't feel right but, at the same time I am so Thankful for his kind sweet words, and just being there, present. We laid and cuddled in the hospital bed for hours,watching what few channels there are on a hospital t.v.
I thanked God that he was there

Aiden & the little ones say that Grandpa is holding you...Sweet little one, I pray with all my Heart that he is.

Our Birthday Gift....

Movie Projector
Granted this is not out yard....
BUT, I would LOVE to do this,this SUMMER.
Shadd and I have been waiting about 5-6 years to get one. Either stores have been sold out or no time etc.... Finally, decided to do this for both of our Birthday's. Looking forward to FRIDAY Night Movies & Halloween Parties....Looking Forward to more Memories with our CHILDREN!

Baking this Season

This holiday Season was limited as far as time,but we still tried to get in what little baking or gifts we could.

Mission Inn

the Mission Inn
Holiday's,Lights,Hot Chocolate,Coffee,Gingerbread Men,Laughs,Smiles,Hand Holding.....Our Family....
Beautiful